Sometimes people ask me: “Who is Cerule?” All I can answer is “Cerule is herself, just as I am me and you are you.”
While we are all connected to the whole, we are more closely connected to some people or beings than others.
Cerule and I are connected in a special way that feels both familiar and new, as if she were a distant cousin who responded to a call within my being for a portal to new adventure and creativity. A “call” like this is like a key that immediately matches the lock it opens.
Also, after doing these drawings of Cerule, I discovered more about her: She is an emanation of the three norns (see the chapter on Peorth in Divination).
Some General Thoughts on Guides (Inner Teachers)
I believe a guide may be a higher dimensional aspect of oneself or a separate primary consciousness, relatively speaking (since all consciousness appears interconnected and overlaps). A guide may be both a higher dimensional aspect of oneself AND a separate primary consciousness, similar to a great old cypress tree growing a young tree from its own roots. This is the case with Akesha and me; I am Akesha, yet at the same time, Akesha is much, much more than I am!
I remembered the name of my soul or source self in 1983 in Goldstream, Alaska, while driving past a greenhouse on my way to the grocery store. I heard the name “Akesha” audibly in my left ear. It sounded as if it came from far, far away, but was very clear. I also saw a great mountain, grassy plains, and squat trees in my mind’s eye. Upon hearing the name, I remembered that a few days earlier, while washing dishes, I had casually wondered: “Does my soul have a name? If it does, I wonder what it is?” Then I had forgotten all about it until I heard the name whispered in my ear. I recognized the name at once: “Oh, yes, that’s who I am …” It felt as ordinary as remembering the name of an old friend I’d forgotten.
It appears that a guide may be a member of our spiritual family or a member of a different spiritual family temporarily assigned to us. A guide may be with us all our life or come in only briefly.
The first time I became aware of guides was in 1971. From that time to late 1989 they restricted their contact with me to the dream state. In the first contact, I was in a “gray space” just before waking up. I was a point of light and the guide was a point of light. I knew this even though I could not see him. He asked me, “Why didn’t you stop by and see J?” The tone was totally neutral, not critical or leading or pushy. I replied, “Well, she never has anything to say. She just complains about things.” The voice did not respond. It was still neutral, with an inquiring air about it. But as I listened to myself as I answered the question, I began to wonder: “What if I’m wrong about her? Maybe I should go see her.” So the next day I went and visited. I discovered that she had more depth to her than I ever would have guessed. Had that guide not asked me that question, I never would have known her as a friend.
I have had so many wonderfully productive dreams with guides that I can’t relate them all here without writing a book. But how do I know they were/are guides? Dream guides have several consistent, defining features. For one, they are never intrusive. They stay in the background most of the time, observing and exuding an air of support. When they do take an action, it’s usually to ask a question or point something out, usually so low key that it would be easy to overlook---except for the revelation that the simple question or action evokes. Sometimes they perform discret “Do you get it?” maneuvers. They are never preachy, teachy, moralistic, expectant, or demanding.
In 1989 while sitting in meditation, I thought to myself: Why not invite my dream guides to visit me while I’m awake? I no sooner had this thought than a number of balls of light about the size of golf balls appeared in a ring around my head. I almost panicked. I said aloud, “OK, you can be here, but just don’t say anything.”
To work with a high-level guide (rather than lower-level, off-the-wall “spirits” and such), we must be able to expand our awareness to include higher consciousness. Here, we overlap, meld with, or become a part of the guide’s consciousness. Consciousness must overlap to communicate. We have to be able to harmonize or tune into the level of intelligence we seek. A guide must also have the skill and knowledge to reach downwards to meet you.
How do guides present themselves? What do they look like? If you’re a newcomer, your guide is likely to adopt a form that you find safe and attractive. The guide will take into account your expectations and conditioning until you are ready to handle the guide’s true form. The guide’s true form might be that of a light being without human features, a geometric shape, or an angelic being of extraordinary beauty. In the beginning the true form of a guide might distract you. Or a guide might prefer to appear in the form of a favorite embodiment, which could be anything from a farmer to a homemaker to a shop clerk---not at all what you would expect of a higher being!
You can also choose to work with a personification of the divine or a traditional religious figure—Quan Yin, St. Joseph, Jesus, the Buddha, Mary, a Sufi mystic, Tara, or an angel, for example. You will either tune in to an emanation of your chosen guide or one of your guides in resonance with that emanation will work through the appearance with you.
If all this sounds confusing, it’s only as confusing as life and the basic question a boy asked of Walt Whitman: “What is grass?” The poet responded that he had no more of an idea than the child.
All our scientific knowledge only begs the question. Sure, grass can be analyzed in all sorts of ways. We can describe the many processes, elements, and conditions associated with grass. We can even describe it at the quantum level. But we still don’t really know what it is. All we have are descriptions of it.
Probably the main thing to remember about guides is that the more you have developed yourself, the higher you will be able to reach. Your guides will stay in the background until they know you will first try to help yourself; they do not want you to become dependent on them. They will exhibit all the qualities of a good teacher. They will encourage you and be there for you but they will not do your work for you. They will allow you to make your own mistakes so that you can learn. They will give you information when it is wise to do so. A true guide would never advise you to do anything harmful to yourself or others. A true guide respects your autonomy and free will to make your own choices.
You can also work with a traditional religious figure as a guide. You might want to work with Quan Yin, St. Joseph, Jesus, the Buddha, Mary, or a Sufi mystic, for example. Or you might wish an angel.
Questions: Why work with a guide? What is a guide? Is it necessary to work with a guide? If you do want to work with a guide, where do you begin? How can you tell if your guide is real and of the light?
Short Answers: 1. A person would want to work with a guide in order to have direct personal instruction and assistance from a higher being in their spiritual growth, personal life, and service to others. (Especially if they don't have an advanced teacher in person.) 2. A guide is a being with consciousness that is more developed than the one being guided. 3. No, it is not necessary to consciously work with a personal guide. 3. You begin working consciously with a guide by asking for one. 4. You can tell whether your guide is real and is of the light in the same way that you can tell if another person, such as an embodied teacher, is real and of the light: Evaluate what they say, how you feel when you are around them, how they act in relation to you (do they encourage your independence and self-reliance, uplift you while being truthful, let you do your own work, never tell you what to do, and advise you to trust yourself?), and evaluate the fruits of their teachings. Above all, listen to your inner knowing. If you listen, you will know what is good and what is not good. Pay attention to your gut, too, which is your basic survival intuition that warns you of danger. And use your reason. Use all your tools, knowledge, wisdom, and resources.